I began to realize there are probably other “amateur” folks like me on their own trying to take care of a loved one with this disease and possibly could benefit from my shared personal experiences. Soon this diary turned into this book.

Does my wife know she is not well? Does she know how she was before she was diagnosed with Alzheimer´s? Does she remember her past? Then I realized “what about us”, our 43 years of marriage, does she remember that past? She recognizes me but how far back? Did our marriage begin in 1979 or 2017 when she was diagnosed? I wasn’t sure where I was in her memory, her friend or her husband.

How do I connect with my wife and get her to connect with me? This is always a constant desperation on my part especially because she doesn’t speak. I am always afraid she will stop connecting with me, especially when I get that blank look, that “daze into no man’s land. I never show my “ real panic” and always act as if everything is normal. Described in Preventing Her Shutdown is how I learned to “connect” with her, understand what she is thinking and what her feelings are, even though she is silent. More importantly, detailed is how she has learned to reach out and connect with me to communicate.

My experiences and actions as they happen “racing against the Alzheimer’s clock” to keep her communicating and interacting every day, even though she no longer speaks, are detailed in my never-ending battle to prevent her shutdown. $1.99 on Kindle.

Almost thirty and single, Emily Sommers trades the big city for Sweetwater Creek, family and friends. An online nutritionist, she loves her historic apartment, but not the repair bills. Best friend Jackson Hart steps in her handyman. Seeing her best friend with the lovely Victoria Pomeroy makes Emily crazy so she turns to online dating. Jackson volunteers as her advisor and it’s all confusion and fun from there. $0.99 on Kindle.

Mason Manning was the man of my dreams. I wanted him. Needed him from the time I knew what real need was. When he asked me to be his fiancée, I knew this would be my chance. Sage Winchester was my best friend’s kid sister. Only she’s not a kid anymore. She’s all woman with big blue eyes, long shapely legs that look like a wet dream in painted on denim. I want her but I can’t have her. When I needed a fake fiancée she’s the one I ask. It was just a little bit of pretending for a few months. Until a hotel in Houston changed everything between us. $0.99 on Kindle.

My wife is dead and now her parents are trying to take my child, my heir to the throne of Estamillo. They say I’m not fit to be her father. They claim I am not providing a nurturing female presence as a single dad. I will not give up my daughter. Never. She’s all I have left. And she secures the line of succession. My lawyer says I need a fiancée. And fast. I have the perfect candidate. My daughter’s Nanny. $0.99 on Kindle.